Oh crap I got bored again.
1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.: I was a really little kid and I remember being in awe of the dancing and the cuteness and the music and everything. Dirty dancing is p awesome
2: Talk about your first kiss: I was thirteen and in seventh grade. Me and my boyfriend actually kind of snuck out of the gym and went into this little alcove and I remember we were both really shy and embarrassed and he kinda just wrapped his arms around my waist and held me to his chest and then we kind of just pulled away and he leaned down and we just stared at each other for a minute before we finally kissed. It was actually really cute wow.
3: Talk about the person you've had the most intense romantic feelings for.: Shit fuck uh. That person is my most recent ex. We have pretty much been together on and off for all my high school career. He was my best friend, and I really loved being w him. Now, I don't want him back. I'm kind of actually glad we're done.
4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far.: Being so pathetic when he was breaking up with me
5: Talk about the best birthday you've had: probably this one. I really loved having this day w my sister and family and all that and then another day w my friends and bf
6: Talk about the worst birthday you've had: I think it may have been last years? I didn't have many friends and I just kind of was /:
7: Talk about your biggest insecurity.: The way I look. I really hate my legs and arms and neck. They disgust me and I feel obese looking at them even though Im not.
8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of.: fuck. uh. My caring. I want to care for my friends and my family and the person i like. I love protecting them
9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.: Little things? I like my eyes. My lips. My ears. Sometimes I like my waist. Sometimes.
10: Talk about the biggest fight you've ever had: ... Biggest? I.. dont know. I've been in a lot. With my mom, boyfriends, friends.. i dont know
11: Talk about the best dream you've ever had.: I was happy. I was loved.
12: Talk about the worst dream you've ever had.: The person I cared so much for at that time died, and to me, in the world we were in, it killed me. I woke up crying.
13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time: I regret this story a lot. I was almost fourteen. I had literally just broken up with my ex and I was hanging out with my friend and his friend who was an ex of mine. I was depressed and sad and I just wanted to forget the break up. We ended up having sex on my friends bed.
14: Talk about a vacation.: I've never really been on one?
15: Talk about the time you were most content in life.: I think.. sad to say, being held in my ex's arms while we were laying down. He made me feel safe.
16: Talk about the best party you've ever been to: Emma' halloween party. Amaaaaazing.
17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with.: Hum. Robert, I suppose. I should text him tomorrow?
18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school: I was threatened to be killed by a girl that didnt like me.
19: Talk about something that happened in middle school: I got a boyfriend! I got suspended for skipping w said boyfriend! I lost my virginity! ...fuck.
20: Talk about something that happened in high school.: I had a friends w benefits. I failed a class. I moved from my childhood neighborhood.
21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.: Last year, there was this boy that liked me, john. As sweet as he was, he got really creepy, and started stalking me.
22: Talk about your worst fear.: Being alone. I need people.
23: Talk about a time someone turned you down.: Hm. Have I really ever been turned down? Shit.
24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.: That they loved me.
25: Talk about an ex-best friend.: I suppose there's matty. She and I were friends since seventh grade, and I'd known her since fifth. Its sad, but things happen.
26: Talk about things you do when you're sick.: Tumblr. Watch shaytards and shane dawson and danisnotonfire and amazingphil and just youtube and pokemon
27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else's body.: Hm. Lexi. I love her legs. I'm insanely jealous of them. Her hair. I love brown hair ugh. She's tan and im just ajkjhlkjghslkj jealous.
28: Talk about your fetishes.: I like being dominated. Like, pushed against something under someone completely immobile.
29: Talk about what turns you on.: Neck biting/kissing/licking, being slammed against something. Making out. nips down the body.
30: Talk about what turns you off.: SMELL. uuuugh. This guy I had a fling with reeked of b.o. down there. I was /not/ going down there.
31: Talk about what you think death is like.: Scary. Dark. Reliving your life.
32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.: I still remember the library, and when it was so tiny and under the counter there was a giant poster of the hungry hungry catepillar and i remember seeing a book on tying shoes and i was so curious
33: Talk about what you do when you are sad.: Cry. Cry. Cry.
34: Talk about the worst physical pain you've endured.: Wisdom teeth wow
35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.: Failing school, chafing, being flustered
36: Talk about your guilty pleasures.: I like k-dramas, and country music, and chocolate and sex.
37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.: Robert. Back in seventh grade. Like, shit. I thought I was in love with him and I dunno because dude its like its seventh grade how do you know shit?
38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.: I'll never be the same will always remind me of Jake. Always will make me think of robert. Along with any hu song or atmosphere song. Superhuman will always remind me of Shay.
39: Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier.: That jake was going to break up with me. That he was going to enlist.
40: Talk about the end of something in your life.: The end of my relationship. I thought we were going to go far in it too. It's kind of sad. Oh well.
so apparently im hanging out with my ex next friday. wow ok that happened suddenly. so to sum up this weekend: I kissed a guy, I landed myself a hackey sack lesson from my ex that i havent seen in more than a year, and i messed up my favorite shorts by getting them absolutely soaked at quincy’s graduation which was amazing omg but yeah bluh. so much action xx how did this happen????
I’ll never pass this school year.
sometimes i miss you so badly, and i sit there wondering if you’re missing me. then i remember you’re the one that left. you didnt need me. i only needed you.
so much homework and so little drive to actually do it. like. why bother.
yeah this is fun. im now resorting to blaming them on the wood carving knifes. thank fucking god for gullible people
summer school for me because im failing yay fucking yay.
im such a fucking idiot
i suppose things between us are completely ruined. I fucked up. And now everything’s dead. You never think about how numb you can feel until you realize how much of your day revolved around a person.
im so /tired/. Not literally, but figuratively. I wish I could just give up. Give up on exams, and makeup, and crying, and friends, and everything. Just… give up. Completely give up.
its not getting better. its not. its getting worse.
it hurts to dream when the dreams are the reality you miss
awkward awkward awkward and not posting on main blog because /awkward. ugh. uuuuuuung. i want to see him before he leaves but i dont think he wants to see me and its awkward and it sucks and this sucks and i went to conclusions and fucked even more things up and now Zoe and Adrienne are all gushy and trying to say me and Brandon should have a thing but i dont want a thing. I dont want /anything/....
You’re hungry and then you’re not. eating just suddenly becomes so fucking tiresome. you’re sitting there, at the computer, remembering every little detail from the past nine months, crying uncontrollably, like you have for the past two days. And all you can think is holy fucking shit its only been two days how has it only been two days how can you miss talking to a person so...
i cant stop crying help
Day 3 — Your parents
Mom: I love you so much. I hate the little rebellion stage I went through a couple years ago because I missed out on so much time I could have been laughing and joking around with you instead. You’ve done so much for me, and sacrificed so much. You didn’t have to keep me inside you. I was from another man, and you already had two kids, the youngest ten years old already. I was a huge...
Sleep. That’s literally all I want to do lately. I’m so tired. I’ve been tired for like the past two hours, but I /had/ to get this drawing in. I need to. Bed sounds so lovely right now.
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parents: wow you look gorgeous you are so beautiful
family: surely you have 14 boyfriends and boys falling at your feet
friends: omg you are soooo pretty
boys: i've never really seen this species of animal before
Me: Someone tell me what to draw
Someone: draw this
Me: no not that
Period: Let me just stab you in the uterus. Nbd
Period: You didn't like that pair or underwear, did you? Good, 'cause its ruined.
Period: Go eat a whole tub of ice cream, a cake and 3 chocolate bars, and then maybe some fried chicken
Period: I hope you like blood
Period: *le breeze* instantly horny
Period: Can I make those wrappers any more noisy? Challenge accepted.
Period: I hope your mom didn't like that bedding
Period: You're not ugly enough as it is, here, have a face full of pimples
Period: Let me just keep you up all night with some cramps
Period: I'm here for a week, enjoy bitches
That annoying piece of hair that never does what...
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